FMP - Bored now...

so very bored.....

This FMP was supposed to be a self-indulgent project about something that we had a special interest or even love for - but I've somehow turned it into a monotonous, drawn-out affair in which i have lost almost all enthusiasm and motivation to do - and am almost resenting, because whilst I'm painfully slogging each bird image out, I've got a load of other quick turnaround ideas going around in my head that i would much rather be doing. I'm so frustrating. I though i was the sort of artist that would be good at making series' of images based on a similar theme. Turns out, not so much.


I'm bored of getting up every day and drawing the same thing, in less and less interesting ways. It's almost made me grow tired of looking at birds (obviously not, because birds are awesome) but the whole production process is wearing me down.

It's too late in the day to make a last-ditch switch to another project as i don't want to end up with two hadl finished submisisons - but after already facing the fact that I've had to half my proposed image count (40 down to 20) I'm also going to have to accept my initial statement of intent; with the planned animations and painted laser cut birds just isn't going to happen now. I'm going to have to produce 2 new birds every day for the next 2 weeks if even i stand a chance of having a book ready to send off to a printers to be professionally printed and bound. ( if i opt for the print dungeon i have a week or so longer) And thats not factoring in days i'll be away or working on my  PPP presentation.

Deadline breakdown:

• Submission- May 15th
• Days i'll be away from Leeds - April 28-May 3rd 
• Last date for professional printing/binding (7-11 business days) - May 4th
• Amount of production days left (predicted, if i do NOTHING else) - 12
• Birds left to produce - 13 (plus cover designs and page layout)

basically, I'M  PROPER F**KED.

So what started out as a project which would give me a chance to combine a mixture of hand-made, digital and animated elements is going to be a plain old collection of digital prints in a book (if I'm lucky) - that, because of the personal elements included in the pictures (as it was supposed to be a personal project) have no meaning to anyone else on the planet ( apart from my immediate family)

Brillant(!)

You can see why my motivation is rock bottom at this point. Spending day and night making pictures for a book that no-one will relate to, or even see will do that i guess? 

My final practical project of my degree has turned into an unadventurous, irrelevant damp squib.

I need to pull something special out for the Degree show, for my own peace of mind. I can't go out like this?!!